on with the sickness

are there ever times when you seriously start questioning someone's sexuality? i'm there.

well today was kind of awful unfortunately. nathan began having an allergic reaction to his prescription refill yesterday morning, but it seems that no amount of benadryll really helps. he has been itching and miserable all day and there is nothing i can do about it except rub anti-itch cream all over his body where he has been itching. :( i wish i could make the pain go away. i've been where he is and it definitely sucks. i was lucky enough though that my reaction was contained to my foot (post surgery) compared to all-over itch.

we had planned to go to the emergency room early this morning around eight am. (that doesn't really sound early to most i'm sure but that's early to me/us. haha) but after a restless night for nathan, he finally got to sleep and didn't want to wake up from it, which i definitely don't blame him for. because i didn't have class for several hours after getting ready to basically go nowhere, i decided to curl up next to him and take a nap. unfortunately that nap caused me to miss both my classes. EEK! it turns out i didn't miss much in my anatomy lecture, just some notes and mostly babbling. so i caught up on the reading and all of that jazz, but i'm so anxious and nervous for tomorrow. i have my first day of anatomy lab and just based off of my friend's experience, it's going to be mentally exhausting and draining. :( sigh... what have i gotten myself into?

mmmyeah, and i signed nathan and i up for a psychology survey about couples, so we had to do that tonight for about an hour. on the plus side i got credit for the "experimentation" part of my psychology course and nathan got entered to win a $50 gift card somewhere. ahha

OH YES! i hate incompetent people. i'm sorry but i don't see how hard it is to make pizzas, bake them, take orders, and shove them in a box. it was like an hour+ ordeal just to get a damn large pizza. wtffffffff! there's a reason some people get paid minimum wage i guess?

WHEW!

well, this is my first post in awhileee. :) but things are actually stable and normal now. well as normal as they can be for us, hahaha.

koda is doing very well now that there aren't other dogs around and it's just his brother, raider. the swelling and fluid that was in his elbow where the pin was causing friction has gone down significantly after using the two prescriptions my mom's vet in wylie gave us. we'll be going back at the end of january to the vet in beaumont that performed the surgery so he can remove the pin in his leg. YAY! :) so by that time koda will be completely healed and be able to do his bouncy bouncy routine as usual, which of course he is missing a LOT!

the spring semester has officially started and i think i'm going to like it. :) my psychology class is a lot of fun and i like the people in there so far although a few of them are kinda weird though. so far statistics kinda sucks because it's boring, the class is packed like sardines, and we have some indian guy filling in for the actual teacher... but it's just been note taking so far so i can't complain too much. my texas history class should be great though because i have had my instructor a previous class and he is very passionate about history and has a good sense of humor. anatomy is pretty intimidating but i'm superrr excited! there is going to be a lot of time and effort spent on studying and doing homework for this class in order to get my a! haha

alsoooo, one of my good friends heath is going to italy for the semester! he is leaving sunday morning so i'm sad BUT i'm super excited for him and of course jealous. haha

"People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities.

Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s

not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look

at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something

out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to

be pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you."

EAT. PRAY. LOVE.

if i told you the truth

well, here we go again with the back and forth

trying to open up the same closed door

well, i wear my pride, you hide your pain

we both know there's no winning

but we still play the game

if i told you that i need you

would you run or stay with me?

would you steal my heart again and set me free?

if i told you i would never leave you

would you come unglued?

what would you do?

if i told you the truth

same old reasons, same excuses and lies

we've said it all before with the same goodbye

i can't let you leave me

you won't let me go

before we do this again, there's something you ought to know

if i told you that i need you

would you run or stay with me?

would you steal my heart again and set me free?

if i told you i would never leave you

would you come unglued?

what would you do?

if i told you the truth

i can't take away the past

and can't give up on us

i just hope that all i am will someday be enough

if i told you that i need you

would you run or stay with me?

would you steal my heart again and set me free?

if i told you i would never leave you

would you come unglued?

what would you do?

if i told you the truth

what would you do?

if i told you the truth

sometimes life presents us with different paths and

it is up to us to choose which to take. but

then the question becomes, which do you take?

i just want to feel something

but i wanna feel somethin'

somethin' that's a real somethin'

that moves me, that proves to me i'm still alive

surprise, surprise

i get to babysit or at least visit

this dork tomorrow evening ;)

and she doesn't even know it!

best big sister in the world

RIGHT HERE ♥